Fast Forward

Where do I begin with what I am about to write. Well my birthday was yesterday and I turned nineteen. It wasn't the eventful day I hoped it would be but it was pretty decent and I can't complain. A lot of people wished me happy birthday, phone calls, emails etc. I spent the morning and afternoon with my mom and spent the night with Emily at her job with Corey (other coworker. Emily bought me a a pink cake with hearts on top and chocolate on the inside. It was yummy =) They sang me happy birthday lol I thought that was sweet. Anyways prior to that before my birthday and everything I finally got to see the movie avatar in 3D which was pretty awesome. I wanna see it again though because there was some distractions....as much as I want to go into detail about everything that happened that night I cant. And I don't even know why but it just seems irrelevant. It feels like I was just THERE and it just HAPPENED. Don't get me wrong it was good but was there any meaning to it? Is that why I feel the way I do? Maybe I think to much idk. I guess I just have to see what happens. When I say "see what happens" it doesn't only mean me and that specific person but just ME. Who do I choose to be with, who am I hooking up with, am I going to flunk this semester, what is to happen in the next couple of weeks or months you know what I mean?....everything is just all over the place. Sometimes I wonder what I get myself into..*sigh*

7 More Days !

Soooooo what's in seven more days your asking? Well my birthday is in seven more days and I'll be 19. I am THRILLED and yet...I'm not. The reason I'm not is because well it's definitely not the same as being 21 and I'm still considered just some teen. There's a numerous amount of things I CANT do but we wont get into that. I mean I don't care because I don't want to rush into anything or rush to get older but it still feels bleh. Im in between an adult and a teen and I don't like that -_- yea well I guess there's nothing I can really do about that but "age" and wait FOREVER! Ahhh well trust me I'll make the best of it and I am in NO rush. I'm not ready to be an old poop just yet anyways :)Until next time....