` A Sense Of Aloofness. . . . .

I've been having exceptional days lately and just hanging out. Tomorrow I start school again and this will be my second semester. At first I was looking forward to it but now, I am undecided. Apparently I have no other choice. I am just allergic to the fact that I have to buy books and spend my money. Yea today I received my pell grant money which was $500. It's going to go to my books though and nothing else. -__- I can't make any promises though, because the last time it didn't lol I forgot what I spent the money on. Lets just say it wasn't books. Anyways the classes I am taking this semester are: English(II),Bio,Pys,Speech,Critical Thinking. 5 classes. I know this is going to be alot for me but I don't care. I want to get it out of the way as quick as possible and be able to transfer. If you didnt know, my grades for the first semester were not all that great. I wont be taking BMCC's nursing courses. The policy was to have an A- in every single class and unfortunately that was not the case for me. Ahh well. I didn't give it my all and that was my mistake. ALWAYS procrastinating. And still do.....Once again, I have everything I need and my life isn't GREAT but it's not to shabby either and yet I still feel like something is missing. I really wish I knew what it was. Im unsure of what to write anymore. Im tired and bored and tired and just SO BORED !!!!! fuck me Did I mention..oh never mind.